So I’ve mentioned in my first post that I am an amateur poet. Amateur being the key word here.
I wrote a series of poems from about the age of 23 through to 29. I haven’t written any since but I looked over this series the other day.
The first thing I noticed is that they aren’t quite as good as I once thought they were. But hey, this is Memoirs of the Mind – and that is where these poems came from. So I present them to you.
I formed the poem’s into a book called Beauty and Disruption.
This series follows a journey. The journey from the beginnings of a young, happy and naive youth, through the downfall of a stage lost in grief and self pity, and eventually out the other side.
Here is the fifth of the series.
GONE BUT NOT LOST (Rory Mouttet)
I had a special friend
and I tell you that I always loved him so
but his time came to an end
for a reason this life won’t let me know.
I never felt alone.
He was forever by my side
but one day on the telephone
I learned it was time to say goodbye
I felt a piece of me die
never to fill my heart again.
Oceans of tears I have cried
But they didn’t help me numb the pain.
Many times in the past
We differed in our points of view
but then he’d just make me laugh,
It was so easy for him to do.
It hurts that I never said
How much I loved you my dear man,
as I stare at your empty bed
Trying so hard to understand.
Why did you have to leave?
Why did you have to go away?
Somewhere inside of me,
lie the words that I never got to say.
Do you recall when we
used to go out side and play?
Life was just so carefree.
We didn’t need to feel afraid.
I know you’re listening
when I get down on my knees and pray.
I was there at your christening
and I know that we’ll meet again some day.